Everyone: I cannot wait for
this pandemic to end so I can return to the life I had before this mess!
Me: I cannot wait for this
pandemic to end!
Isolation
Distancing
Can’t work
Can’t move on
Can’t move forward
Unable to go back
Trying to stay healthy
Actually, trying to not get
sick
Every day becomes a painful
recycle of the one before
Anger and frustration over
what I’m told I cannot do
A shortage of resources;
ineffective treatments; no cure
Wondering what our “new
normal” will look like
Waiting to get sick
Hoping my preparations will be
sufficient to fight the inevitable
Tracking the news, the damage,
the hope, the loss
Going to sleep afraid — waking
up to do it all again
What I described to you is my
life before the coronavirus outbreak. I merely traded one Groundhog Day for
another. When this ends, there is no cessation. On April 17th, I experienced
the horrible realization that a medical setback in either scenario was my only
foreseeable change. Beyond illness, they would be little difference between
yesterday, tomorrow, and today…
…unless I change today.
For the fourth time, I will
define myself. Much like before, there is no clear image of who I will become –
I just know it can’t be the man I was yesterday. Unlike before, I will not
destroy the foundation already set – my efforts to thrive cannot abandon life I
love and cherish.
What does all this mean for
me? I don’t know. I spent the better part of two days trying to write my next
paragraph. Despite my efforts, all I can definitively come up with is, “I will
redefine my value.”
Hopefully, it will mean
correcting or abandoning toxic habits/relationships/patterns. This is my
opportunity to forge new connections, set and strive towards new goals, and
thriving within new experiences — all the while I will nurture and care for
those loved ones I hold dear, the values which truly matter.
[Where does that leave me?]
You’re still here, my friend.
[Whew!]
Some changes will be dramatic;
others, barely perceptible. On April 17, I came to realization, “I can’t live
like this.” It will take some time, but I invite you to follow my story.
“This
Is How I Want to Live”
to be continued…
I will never stop
I will never quit
This is my story
Please
donate today: http://main.nationalmssociety.org/goto/eleanor
100%
of the royalties earned from my books go to the National MS Society, to support
our fight: http://neverstopneverquit.com/books
Never Stop… Never Quit…®
Kevin
Byrne
Portland,
OR
Never Stop…
Never Quit…
Reg. U.S. Pat. & Tm. Off.
No comments:
Post a Comment